Hush Now

Hush now, hush now,
watch us tip toe
skate and dance
never touching, only skimming.

Hush now, don’t ruin the suspense
with words you’ll have forgotten
by the breaking light of dawn.

Slow now, watch the sunrise,
watch the sunset, the moonrise
the stars sparkle.

Hush now, let us fall
slowly, slowly, slowly
into a heap.

Hush now, let us fall
fall fall fall.

Hush now.

I Will Burn

I’m afraid of the rush
afraid of the hush
afraid I have fallen too quickly
afraid I have thrown my shield away
afraid my mask has been torn in two.

I cannot stop my thoughts
cannot stop the buzzing
cannot stop the wanting
cannot stop the burning
cannot stop the longing.

I’m afraid of the heat
afraid I will burn
afraid I cannot resist
even if it burns.

I cannot stop.
I cannot wait.
I cannot hide.

I want every inch
every laugh
every smile
every wrinkle
every part of
you.

Even if I burn.

The air fueled with desire,
with temptation,
with an emotion nobody has named,
and finally it ends–

Words fade into the distance,
glances turn to gazes,
brushing of fingertips turn to
moments, seconds, minutes
and at last;

they press themselves together
melting together,
hands no longer linger,
pressed against one another
roaming, discovering every crease,
every groove, every muscle, every scar;
rediscovering.

Lips delicately tuned into their beat,
tongues roam, gently then fiercely,
tangled in a beautiful mess,
hot heavy breathing,
rising chests,
rhythmically moving
to the silent beat they know of;

they break apart, painfully aware
unable to find their tongues
to eloquently word what happened;

they gaze at each other,
as if they have a silent language
they edge closer,
hands link slowly,
it begins again.

Do not ask for more
and do not ask for less,
understand my desire for
gentle touches and
scorching kisses.

Dare not challenge me,
dare not ask me why,
accept me with vices
and plead with me
when I am stubborn,
but ask me why and I will run.

Ask no questions,
take my request in your stride,
nod as a gentlemen would
and carry out my wish,
just this once…
stay with me tonight
warm the covers,
and hold me tight.

His body language,
warm and charming,
exuberant and welcoming.

His crew cut,
always the same,
never long enough to play with,
to dive into.

His deep white smile,
forever warm and cheeky,
unchanged.

His deep, soft voice
a familiar tune,
effortlessly outdoing
any voice, any sound in the room.

His sculptured body,
hard and strong,
soft and gentle,
mine;
all mine.

I bite my lip,
a gentle frown creases my forehead;
his chocolate eyes stare through me,
ignorant to my agony,
my confusion.

He stands here,
real and solid;
no illusion of his presence,
but he is a shadow;

the shadow of what was
once mine.

You smile too sweetly,
begging for me to unwrap you,
unravel you, understand you,
you’re taunting me,
wishing me to trace every vein,
every line, every body part…

You’re here, too close,
too tempting, too irresistible,
untouchable.